Growing up we were taught a lot about shaytaans plan for man, but what about Allahs plan for man? What was Gods purpose for this divine creation? What was the reason for his gift of free will to us if we are continuosly being told that there is only one way of worshiping God.
The thing that scared me the most about Allah is that knowing he gave us free will we were not allowed to use it. We are not allowed to use it by threading beyond the boundaries of islam or the belief system that we were raised in. That belief made me feel more like a prisoner and less like a creation. Now I know Allah did not create us to be merely prisoners in this world and those beliefs that limits us or restrict us from exploring beyond our boundaries, those beliefs were not set by Allah but rather by men who set out to incite fear in our hearts so we don't tarnish or change or thread away from our religion. But is it worth it though?
How many people has ran away or shut themselves off of anything that has to do with God or religion?
I know I have. I was one of those people. I wanted life and to live but I was continuosly told that this world is not real and I was going to die. Now it may just seem like my perspective but regardless of how I viewed things there is still a terrifying way that God and religion is being presented to the people. A severe misconception that truly damages the belief and faith and imaan that the creation of God has in him.
We as creation may have been created from a clot of flesh but were each designed differently. We think differently, feel differently, heal differently. And some of us are not strong enough to defend our own beliefs. We are not strong emotionally, mentally, and physically. We beat our own ideologies into people and when they can't hold on to them we say they have weak imaan.
Allah wants us to know him. To bond with him, to trust him. He made us all into something. To experience ourselves and Him and this world so we can all grow and revere him the way he wants us to revere him.
This world is ever expanding. There are millions of galaxies that we don't even know of. So is it possible that there are millions of different ways that we can communicate and get close to him?
With all this hoopla and taboos and misconception I sometimes wonder what does God want from me? Who does he expect me to be? Should I as a good muslim woman dress myself only hijaab, pray five times a day, search for a good pious husband. Or can I as a muslim woman express myself in a different way? Can I expose my hair and not be in hijaab and still be called a muslim. Can I choose not to seek for a good pious muslim guy to be my husband but rather live with the hope that my life partner will come directly from Allah even if he himself is not a muslim? Can I choose to look at life and not death? Can I live in this world and still be of this world? Can I openly seek love and to be loved? Can my faith consist of many different beliefs? Can I love and defend and see and accept the messages of other religions or should I reject them because they are of the disbelieving folk?
What path would Allah have me walk?
There are people in this world that suffer greatly because they are confused or filled with immense fear of opening up.
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